28 June 2010 @ 4:59 PM
*
Finally successful in getting a good night sleep yesterday after one whole week of suffering from insomnia :)
Yea, it's mad for sleeping at around 7-8am in the morning everyday. It means I stayed awake throughout the looooooooong night.
Thanks my "special sleeping pill" for yesterday night.
Really effective! And it's not any kind of drugs or medicine, but is in liquid form. HAHAHA !
Guess what is it ? :)
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Guess what is it ? :)
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ACC with Jessie on Fri and Sat for mugging session !
Good place to study!
Thanks Nana and Maimai for recommendation! Hehe.....
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Gonna be busy since this week onwards.
Time passes extremely fast...
Time passes extremely fast...
P/s: BF IS THE BEST OF THE BEST !!!
25 June 2010 @ 5:01 AM
* insomnia
Have been lying down on bed since 1:00 until now... gosh it's gonna be 5:00 soon... ):Will be meeting Jess later at 10:30 but i am still damn awake now... sigh ): i hate insomnia!!!
No more McDonalds for today ! Ew. Yesterday morning actually ordered quite alot :))) so in the end i couldnt finish everything up :)) after Hot cakes, Hashbrowns and half cup of milo, i was already full. lol. finally, decided to go to bed at 7am and left the mc griddles for lunch when i woke up. haha!
saying about eating and food makes me hungry la! :( ..... omg. should i eat or sleep now? it's already 10 past 5... howwww?
mommy, i wanna sleep :((
24 June 2010 @ 5:55 AM
* Sleepless. MacDonalds breakfast.
[ Leaving at this point of time isn't a good idea but..sadly I've got no choice... Guess that it's time to say good bye, let everything go and start a new chapter... :) ]
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5:45am
I can't sleep...
Waiting for MacDonalds delivery man to knock at my door.
Dunno whether it's considered early breakfast or late supper !
Lol.
So, here we go.
Sausage McGriddles® w. Egg
Hotcakes
Iced Milo
&
Hashbrowns.
Credits: All photos are from official website of McDonalds Singapore http://www.mcdelivery.com.sg
♥
Hungry hungry hungry.....
Kept an empty stomach yesterday for 24 hours+.
Superwoman or what? Lol.
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Jessie darling will be back tomorrow! :)
Okay. Shall continue with my Angry Birds & Tap Resorts while waiting. Baibai.
@ 2:39 AM
* OS4.
I've got no choice after all...
I wish I could do everything that please all the people around me... but sorry I am unable to do so...
There is only 1 ME . 1 body, 1 mindset.
I myself already have got difficulty in getting things done in such a way that I want, let alone pleasing everyone else.
Well, it might be possible, hmm, unless I've got 2 brains with super powers ? LOL. Just joking. =)
Sometimes, there will definitely be moments that I let people down.
Sometimes, there are moments when my evil side takes control over me and instigates me to do such mean actions and have such selfish thoughts.
Sometimes, I am not just acting like me....
But.
Let me ask you.
Let me ask you.
How many people out there can make sure that they have never ever done such things like what I've mentioned above?
How many people will ensure that they consider about people's interests first before themselves?
How many people will proudly say that they have never ever let anyone down?
Life is not really a perfect picture to everyone, but the way we make it perfect.
Life might be positive or negative to different people.
I agree.
that...
Life is not just about me or you, but about us.
Life is not just about receiving, but giving.
Life is not just about being loved, but to love.
But.
To me.
A person who used to have a negative perspective of life and is trying to make it positive.
Life is not just about hatred, but forgiving.
Life is not just about revenge, but forgetting.
Life is not just about failure, but a step towards success.
Suddenly, i miss everyone when typing all these out...
HOW and WHAT to do ?
I've got no choice.......
HOW and WHAT to do ?
I've got no choice.......
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Staying up late these few days for no reason.
Waking up late in the afternoon.
I don't have the habit of having breakfast in the morning.
so, 2 meals / day.
Gonna loose weight again......"51kg" doesn't last long.
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Phone has been updated to OS4.
Not bad :)
- Multitasking.
- Camera has function where we can zoom in and out when taking photos.
- Speed of capturing photos is freaking FAST. No more laggy.
- Create folders for different types of app.
- Backgrounds for both Lock screen and Home screen.
- Battery life lasts longer ?!
Hmm.... by the way, I can't sync photos from phone to lappy since yesterday when it's updated to OS4. And I don't know whyyyy.
Sigh ):
Help me.
It's really troublesome to send every single photo via Email. Sigh ! ):
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2:39am.
Seriously sleepy.
Tomorrow is gonna be a busy day ! :) Night.
21 June 2010 @ 1:24 PM
* Signs to recognize artists.
- Always with long messy hair and never combs his hair
- Or with short hair and wear glasses
- Says deep things
- Drinks a lot of alcohol and smokes a lot of cigarettes
- Not getting up until the sun goes down
- He has poor morale and three to four symptoms of depression
- He cries or gets angry only because of the season is changing from autumn to winter
- Shouting "I am really all right now, leave me alone!" after half a pint of lager.
- He and his peers are the only people on earth know what art is
- Spends most of his time talking about his works
- And insists that nobody understands his works
- Also will never be understood by his family
- Secretly hate the other artists, their works is too commercial and shallow
- His greatest work is yet to come
- Has absolutely no idea on how to make money
- But he shows his contempt for money by spending a lot of them
- If you ask him something, he never answers, he quotes.
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Scary.
I've got more than half of 'em.
What are your symptoms ? Lol.
20 June 2010 @ 8:20 PM
*
So, 4/5 for Toy Story 3 :)
Somehow the story line is just about the same: kids have grown up, they tend to abandon their toys, toys feel hurt, kids have no choice but to leave the toys behind, blah blah blah...
Anyway, * thumbs up * for the Day&Night at the beginning part.
Very very cute. Heh! <3
Caught it in 3D and goodness, it gave me a slight headache for wearing the glasses too long.
So anyway, nothing much to talk about Toy Story 3. Go catch it if you have not. Yeah, I'm kinda outdated for watching at this timing but well :) it's worth it.
Love this character the most.
So cute ! ;)
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Craving for Banana ice-cream once againnnnn. Kind of addicted to Banana flavour o.0 LOL.
Okay. Gotta finish up my Sweet and Sour Pork Rice. Yumm!
Okay. Gotta finish up my Sweet and Sour Pork Rice. Yumm!
19 June 2010 @ 2:39 AM
* MISC.
My days have been completely messy.
Well. Just random photos since I don't know what to say. Lol.
Love it !
I bling Jessie's phoneeee ! <3<3
Staying over at her house was so much fun! (: photos of me with her long wig are freaking DISGUSTING ! Lol. Should keep 'em to myself or else people are gonna faint if they happen to see 'em.
Hahaha.
" I'm walking under the rain " :))
I unlocked all the Bonuses in Coin Dozer.
Sold a lot of prizes away 'cause it ran out of tokens and I just tempted to continue playing T^T
Time check: 2:30am
Gonna sleep now (:
And I hope you are really the one.
I thank you... :)
17 June 2010 @ 12:30 PM
*
I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreaming but
There's a voice inside my head saying,
" You'll never reach it ",
Every step I'm taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction...
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No matter what and how I do, it's just useless.
No matter how hard I've tried, it just means nothing.
I fail to be STRONG...
I don't deserve it !....
Save me.
14 June 2010 @ 4:42 PM
* HOW TO MEASURE SUCCESS ?
Just a little something I found on internet to share before heading to airport.
This is really really inspiring.
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"Success is an inside job. To be successful we must first think that we ARE successful.
Everyone measures it differently. Some measure it by how much money they make. Others measure it by their career path and corresponding title.Then you have the people who measure it by the things that they have such as the size of their house, their art and jewelry and the number of cars that they own. Others measure it by the state of their health.
As children, many of us measured success by the friends we had. Were we in the “in-group” at that back table in the cafeteria, or were we outside looking in?
So I’ll ask it again … how do you measure success? It’s different for everyone.
As I sat down at my computer today to put together our newsletter, I decided to search on-line to see what articles I could come up with on this topic. So I did a search on the words “success articles” to see what other people have written about it.
You know what I got? Thousands of pages of success stories … from health to business to website marketing to you name it. Page after page of advice on how to be successful at this and how to be successful at that.
Gave me quite a headache. It sure seems like everyone has an opinion on what I should be doing and how I should be doing it.
In my humble opinion, success cannot be measured in the material things that I have, nor can it be measured by my job title (and I have a lot of those). To me, success is an inside job. To be successful you must FEEL successful on the INSIDE.
You can have all the money, houses and status that you like, but if you do not FEEL successful on the inside, then you will feel like a hamster running on it’s wheel in a cage. You’ll be chasing success all your life and will never achieve it.
Easy for me to say right?
Listen, I’ve been in your shoes and have been on the brink of despair many times. I have been in the eye of the storm more times that I care to count. I have lived through a dark childhood, I have seen negative numbers in my bank account, and I have seen the loss of both my parents to name a few. I made it through to the other side because I never gave up, and I decided to change how I felt about it all.
You see when life gets you down and throws you to the ground, you have two choices … you can lie down there and wallow in it and feel sorry for yourself, or you can get up. I chose to get up.
Easy right?
Not really because it sometimes took me years to get up. Now as I sit here and write this, what song comes up on the radio? Gloria Estefan singing …
“Get on your feet, get up and make it happen”
She’s right actually ... NOW GET UP!!!
What I’ve learned over the years is that you have two choices. You can live your life in fear or in love. If you choose fear (like I did for years) it becomes a life-changing thought that can propel you into a direction that you don’t want to go. It feels like a runaway train that you are incapable of stopping and can’t jump off, and consumes you until you can’t think of anything else.
You become focused on the outside and obsess about what you should do and where you should go. You focus on how you should fix what is wrong in your life, and what you should be doing. You begin to get sick and tired all the time and sleep a lot. Then you begin to think that the answer to your life can be found on the outside in someone else … is there a book I can buy? A person I should visit? A doctor I should see? A tape I should listen to? Certainly someone has the answer I seek!
Outer focused.
I did it for years and years.
Today is a brand new day. It’s a brand new world. You can see the world as positive, abundant and prosperous or you can choose to live the old way and see the negativity, lack and fear. It’s your choice!
I have no answers for you because the answers you seek are already inside of you. You know them already. It’s just a matter of getting quiet and listening to your intuition. Your inner voice if you will. You know where you should be going and what you should be doing. You have all the answers!!!
Follow your heart because it knows the way.
If you want to be successful, then you must first think of yourself as successful!
I suggest that you write a list of what you are proud of in your life. Write each accomplishment on a piece of paper. Mine looked like this:
Graduated from college with a BA.
I have an incredible husband and wonderful children.
I am healthy.
Wrote three books.
And so on ...
BRAG ABOUT YOURSELF! You deserve it!!!
Now read the list. See? You already are successful!!! Look at how much you have done already!!! Be proud of that because you did an excellent job! Do I have to get Barry Manilow to sing “looks like you’ve made it” for you to believe that you already are a success?
So back to my original question … how do you measure success??? Do you measure it by ... money? relationships? career? health? sales?
If you THINK that you are successful, then you will BE successful. Whatever you think about yourself … you’re absolutely right!!!
How did I do it? I followed my inner voice and chose to see myself as successful. I ignored the negativity and looked at life as abundant, compassionate and prosperous. Then, when life got me down and threw me to the ground (which it still does occasionally), I got up.
As the United States moves into the Thanksgiving Holiday, I want to urge all of you to get up. Stand tall! You have so much to be thankful for!! Look UP and not down. Choose your new path and start walking! YOU DESERVE IT!!!
Look up my friend. Look up."
Everyone measures it differently. Some measure it by how much money they make. Others measure it by their career path and corresponding title.Then you have the people who measure it by the things that they have such as the size of their house, their art and jewelry and the number of cars that they own. Others measure it by the state of their health.
As children, many of us measured success by the friends we had. Were we in the “in-group” at that back table in the cafeteria, or were we outside looking in?
So I’ll ask it again … how do you measure success? It’s different for everyone.
As I sat down at my computer today to put together our newsletter, I decided to search on-line to see what articles I could come up with on this topic. So I did a search on the words “success articles” to see what other people have written about it.
You know what I got? Thousands of pages of success stories … from health to business to website marketing to you name it. Page after page of advice on how to be successful at this and how to be successful at that.
Gave me quite a headache. It sure seems like everyone has an opinion on what I should be doing and how I should be doing it.
In my humble opinion, success cannot be measured in the material things that I have, nor can it be measured by my job title (and I have a lot of those). To me, success is an inside job. To be successful you must FEEL successful on the INSIDE.
You can have all the money, houses and status that you like, but if you do not FEEL successful on the inside, then you will feel like a hamster running on it’s wheel in a cage. You’ll be chasing success all your life and will never achieve it.
Easy for me to say right?
Listen, I’ve been in your shoes and have been on the brink of despair many times. I have been in the eye of the storm more times that I care to count. I have lived through a dark childhood, I have seen negative numbers in my bank account, and I have seen the loss of both my parents to name a few. I made it through to the other side because I never gave up, and I decided to change how I felt about it all.
You see when life gets you down and throws you to the ground, you have two choices … you can lie down there and wallow in it and feel sorry for yourself, or you can get up. I chose to get up.
Easy right?
Not really because it sometimes took me years to get up. Now as I sit here and write this, what song comes up on the radio? Gloria Estefan singing …
“Get on your feet, get up and make it happen”
She’s right actually ... NOW GET UP!!!
What I’ve learned over the years is that you have two choices. You can live your life in fear or in love. If you choose fear (like I did for years) it becomes a life-changing thought that can propel you into a direction that you don’t want to go. It feels like a runaway train that you are incapable of stopping and can’t jump off, and consumes you until you can’t think of anything else.
You become focused on the outside and obsess about what you should do and where you should go. You focus on how you should fix what is wrong in your life, and what you should be doing. You begin to get sick and tired all the time and sleep a lot. Then you begin to think that the answer to your life can be found on the outside in someone else … is there a book I can buy? A person I should visit? A doctor I should see? A tape I should listen to? Certainly someone has the answer I seek!
Outer focused.
I did it for years and years.
Today is a brand new day. It’s a brand new world. You can see the world as positive, abundant and prosperous or you can choose to live the old way and see the negativity, lack and fear. It’s your choice!
I have no answers for you because the answers you seek are already inside of you. You know them already. It’s just a matter of getting quiet and listening to your intuition. Your inner voice if you will. You know where you should be going and what you should be doing. You have all the answers!!!
Follow your heart because it knows the way.
If you want to be successful, then you must first think of yourself as successful!
I suggest that you write a list of what you are proud of in your life. Write each accomplishment on a piece of paper. Mine looked like this:
Graduated from college with a BA.
I have an incredible husband and wonderful children.
I am healthy.
Wrote three books.
And so on ...
BRAG ABOUT YOURSELF! You deserve it!!!
Now read the list. See? You already are successful!!! Look at how much you have done already!!! Be proud of that because you did an excellent job! Do I have to get Barry Manilow to sing “looks like you’ve made it” for you to believe that you already are a success?
So back to my original question … how do you measure success??? Do you measure it by ... money? relationships? career? health? sales?
If you THINK that you are successful, then you will BE successful. Whatever you think about yourself … you’re absolutely right!!!
How did I do it? I followed my inner voice and chose to see myself as successful. I ignored the negativity and looked at life as abundant, compassionate and prosperous. Then, when life got me down and threw me to the ground (which it still does occasionally), I got up.
As the United States moves into the Thanksgiving Holiday, I want to urge all of you to get up. Stand tall! You have so much to be thankful for!! Look UP and not down. Choose your new path and start walking! YOU DESERVE IT!!!
Look up my friend. Look up."
Copyright 2007 by Katharine Giovanni
@ 1:55 AM
* Sore eyes.
SORE EYES !
Well done !
In need of someone to sayang me nowww... whoa, painful uh! ):
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Cam-whore with Jessie darling while waiting for lesson at 5pm.
My Chicken Nachos!
Anyhow pressed the Capture button without looking at the laptop screen ((: HAHAHA ! siao...
Okay. Lesson tomorrow as usual. Gotta sleep. My eyes needa rest also ( even though i'm not sleepy at all ).
Good nights.
13 June 2010 @ 12:08 AM
*
Something I cannot change.
Something I will never change.
Things actually happen when you least expect it.
And things will never happen when you actually expect.
12 June 2010 @ 4:30 PM
* Once again, LOST !
Spent almost half a day just to sleep -.-
Woke up at 8am for some reason. Quick breakfast followed after that.
Cereals didn't taste as nice as usual. I don't know why (=
Went back to sleep until 4pm.
Having TOM YAM cup noodles nowww .. maybe for dinner.
Church later at 6pm.
Today completely SUCKS.
)=
By the way, tomorrow will be busyyy and the BEST part is I will need to travel a lot ( like from North to South and back to North again? LOL ).
I want to do something.
Seriously, I want to study. No joke !
I want to do my ART. I honestly want it.
But my brain is like ... being washed off ?
I just kept staring at all the notes/books and didn't know what to do next yesterday.
Fine, a day was wasted while I've left with limited time. OMG ! Time is running out ))=
What is the point if you keep on studying the wrong things ? There will be nobody to tell me whether whatever I'm studying is correct or not.
For God's sake, I'm seriously feeling lost.
I even don't know what I am here for ?
I mean what are the purposes of living ? Each day passes by, I just sit here and do nothing.
Cmon ):
WHAT THE DEUCE ! ):
Can anyone tell me what to do? I mean...GUIDE ME ! Goodness !
I wanna scream out loud ! Cannot take it anymore !!!
):
11 June 2010 @ 1:51 PM
* Studying !
STUDENT
+
DYING
=
STUDYING !!!
Have always been thinking that this statement is true!
Life doesn't really depend on the number of "certificates" that one has, does it ?
I mean, there are millionaires out there with a interesting history of being kicked out from school and yes they still managed to achieve... fame at some certain fields. Perhaps they are really amazingly talented. Perhaps they just have caught the right opportunity. They are lucky while others are not ?
I do not know.
Study ? .... * yawn *
I know I'm talking rubbish.
Study ? .... * yawn *
I know I'm talking rubbish.
Well. I have got no choice after all.
Being motivated, followed by feeling of giving up.
It makes me sick !
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Updated.
Just got the photos of the night before from Sammy.
Dumbdumb.
Sam's mommy birthday. So coincident ! :) thanks anw ya.
Was like laughing like crazy with the kids.
Updated.
Just got the photos of the night before from Sammy.
Was like laughing like crazy with the kids.
Okay. Time passes freaking slow today. Arghhhh !
P/s: boring Friday ! * yawn *
By the way, I hate COUGHING ! )):
By the way, I hate COUGHING ! )):
09 June 2010 @ 11:36 PM
* Lost.
I am considering whether I should be happy or sad.....
LOL. Why happy ? Samantha knows.
LMAO. Why sad ? Clarice, Hui Shan & Jessie darling know.
ROFL.
Well. Mixed feelings.
By the way, I really had a fun and memorable dinner with Sam's family. Thank youuu ;)
Okay. Sleeppp now! Baibai.
@ 1:04 AM
*
Headache ):
DILEMMA !!!
That's not easy to be decisive you know...
Sigh. Okay. Whatever! ):
07 June 2010 @ 2:20 AM
* Damn.
If you honestly feel like I've changed, guess
what I HAVE ? 3 years have passed. People Change! It's natural. An
Oak tree's leaves will change colours when the seasons change. It
looks different yes, but the Autumn Oak tree is still essentially
the same as the Spring Oak Tree. Look at yourself 3 years ago and
ask yourself if you have changed or not? [Michelle Phan]
what I HAVE ? 3 years have passed. People Change! It's natural. An
Oak tree's leaves will change colours when the seasons change. It
looks different yes, but the Autumn Oak tree is still essentially
the same as the Spring Oak Tree. Look at yourself 3 years ago and
ask yourself if you have changed or not? [Michelle Phan]
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I don't give a damn (:
I don't mess with you, so do you pls. Get a life man !
" BY THE WAY, YOU SUCK ! "
Love my badge ttm. Roflmao.
Time check: 2:20am
Well done. I'm still awake even though school will be starting tomorrow later at 8am =.=
My room is soooooo tidy now. When will it last ? HAHAHA.
Ok. Gotta sleep. Baibai.
P/s: when have I started to have this "don't-care" attitude ? :\ hmm.... It's good by the way :)
05 June 2010 @ 1:54 AM
* Coin dozer.
New recommendable game for Iphone/Ipod touch
COIN DOZER !
For the first time that I could get special coin , giant coin and prize at the same time ! Whoosh~
I bet that you guys are quite familiar with this coin dozer machine at malls.
The best part for now is, it's free ! (: it means we don't needa spend countless bucks to play it.
I bet that you guys are quite familiar with this coin dozer machine at malls.
The best part for now is, it's free ! (: it means we don't needa spend countless bucks to play it.
I used to play this game at malls when I was a kid. Really had to spent A LOT of coins and what I could get was just Candy -.- this requires impatience and tolerance to doze the coins to drop down in front but not the two sides because coins dropped down at the sides won't be counted. Haha. Sounds serious huh?
Lol. No worry. It's just a game and only for entertainment purposes :) So, enjoy... Kinda addicted to it even though it's quite childish and somehow.. lame. Hahaha.
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Yesterday's horoscope was amazingly accurate.
Though it was over, I wished to have a day like yesterday once more. Full of enthusiasm and motivation in every aspect of life. Never ever been so confident and optimistic like that before.
I wonder, is it because the horoscope was true OR I was superstitiously believe in what horoscope had said and in fact that was me who made myself cheerful by keeping in mind that I am supposed to be happy ?
I don't know :)
Anyway, superstition is born of ignorance. I can't just blindly believe in that and let it decide how my days will be. Am I right ?..... But still, I can't just let those words off my mind ): Sigh, I am just full of contradictions.....
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Okays. Gotta talk to my aunt.
Btw, had steamed flower crab for dinner yesterday. Yumm.
Main chef of the day: Mr Bra :)) and you know who you are. Hahaha.
Good nights.
04 June 2010 @ 1:31 AM
* 1y3m
1 year 3 months.
457 days.
10968 hours.
658080 minutes.
39484800 seconds.
♥
I cherish every single moment. And you know who you are :)
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I love this babyyy!
Gonna memorize my notes easier and faster by just simply looking at them written down on these super cute post-it.
People might find this lame and trivial but I believe that everyone has their own ways of memorizing things. For me, I make full use of colourful pens, bright-coloured notes, etc.
Hahaha.
* Ignore my randomness pls *
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My room is indeed on the way TOO MESSY ! =.= oopssiee!
Anyway, I'm waiting for Saturday to come to tidy it up. LOL. I don't know how long it will last because it will never ever be cleaned since I have too many things yet limited spaces to keep all of them.
Well, girls' problems...
Time check: 1:40am
I'm sleepy ): but I still have one more piece of work that needa be completed. Sigh.
G.night ♥
03 June 2010 @ 12:11 AM
*
Why am I still smiling when I am not supposed to do so?
Certainly, happiness depends upon ourselves but guess that there is something incorrect with my
"emotion system"
"emotion system"
When there is nothing happen, I will find myself a little bit trouble. I unreasonably tend to be emotional, upset and whatever unpleasant feelings that I compel myself to have. Out of a sudden, I get furious at myself and beloved people around me for no reason.
And, when I encounter from things that let me down or even give me a feeling of giving up, I just force a smile like nothing goes wrong. I keep a blank mind whole day long. Frankly speaking, I do not even seem to be bothered about anything.
What's with me ?
And for God's sake, I cannot control my emotions at all...
Tell me.
Am I abnormal ?
Tell me.
Am I abnormal ?
01 June 2010 @ 1:11 AM
*
What am I to you ?
Seriously, I'm not some kind of toys without feelings and emotions.
I'm not some kind of fools that you can play around with.
I'm not a clown.
Indeed I'm just like you. Nah, please remember I'm human being.
I am smiling, yes, but it doesn't mean I'm okay.
You want it doesn't mean I want it too.
You don't like it doesn't mean I have to dislike it for the sake of you.
You !
What do I really mean ?
I wonder.
Everybody has their limits. Either do I.
Why don't you just get it, you idiot ! ):
Fine !
A fking miserable day and night.
