I agree that I've second thoughts sometimes, come on, who will not? Maybe third, fourth, fifth and so on. But for one thing I can be certain is, I have never ever given up no matter how shitty the situations were. What should I follow, my heart or my mind? Oh, well, it doesn't work both ways anyway.

Faith is shaking.

I can't decide of the path ahead of me. I'm at the cross road that I don't know whether to turn left/right or to go ahead/backward. 

I've stepped in this mud so deep that I can't get myself out of it. It ain't so bad like how it was 5 years ago, but...

Feelings ain't right.

I know, choosing to run away from the bad days is not ideal but I've no choice.

Till then.

I love everybody.

Seriously I don't wanna publish any angry/furious post in my blog. Worse since it's been ages since my last entry and I am back with an effin irritating one like this.

Yes you are right. Right to the extent that I've taken away your freedom too much. Right to the extent that I shouldn't have bothered too much from the initial start.

Maybe it's my moodswing that makes all these seem terrible. 

I can explain, but what for since you won't be listening anyway?

My words, my thoughts.

What are these?

Nonsense to you !

I'm just nothing, except for being a nuisance and what else, a burden. Yes, a burden !

I'm tired of waiting for you every single day like this.

You just don't get how I feel. You just don't fucking know how lonely I am.

Just fucking forget about it okay. You may say I'm not understanding. I'm fucked up, blah blah blah. Fine, but sorry you can't change me because it's the way I am.

I fucking hate empty promises.
Can't do? Don't fucking say out until so loud. 

I shall not expect anything but seriously words affect too much that it hurts me emotionally. 

And again, you won't know all these. Simply because I'm the only one who could sense it and bear with it alone.

Fucking get away from me.

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